Sometimes its best if you just say it out loud.

I'm tired.
I am way more tired than I probably should be.
I have no room what so ever to compare to what some people are going through right this minute. i.e. www.mycharmingkids.com (please pray for this woman's little boy and their family) I am tired for her, desperately tired, and I think I need to just say it out loud what I am tired about.

I am tired of making lists

I am tired of making menus

I am tired of the never ending to do

I am tired of weighing the possibilities and only dreaming of what they could be

I am tired of hearing, "This role reversal thing is kind of different."

I am tired of being the "cute" "Oh my gosh, you look like you are 15" girl

I am tired of making sure everyone else is taken care of

I am tired of considering driving to work is the only thing that I have done for myself today

I am tired of constantly watching what I am eating and feeding my body

I am tired of low fat, low carb, low sugar, low sodium

I am tired of constantly wondering if I am doing it right

I am tired of forecasting money & expenses

I am tired of cold and snow pants, and mittens, and boots, and hats, and having to add in 5 extra minutes for the car to warm up

I am tired of all things guilt in every way, shape, and form

I am tired of forgetting thoughts, names, nasty shirts that need to have gotten to the washer 5 minutes ago, and other random things

I am tired of correcting people: "Cassy, not Cathy."

I am tired of telling the little pessimistic wretched 95 year old woman that lives within me to, "Shove it and just keep moving"

I am tired.
Someone needs to tell me to go to bed.
Thanks for letting me say it all out loud.

My love, all my love,
C.